Oh let me count the ways..

..my life has been crazy yet soooo incredibly blessed.

Lets start at Tue. May the 4th. My county hosted a sub-regional event which went very well then I got home and had to prepare for the next day which was my Fair Board Council Interview, I went and it was really great! I know it went very well, it was my best interview yet. But only thanks to God because a lot of people where praying for me! So afterwords we where going to the hospital to see my Mammaw's Friend who just had surgery 2 days before and then when we got there we found out that he left that morning for home and was doing well (Praise God!!) Thursday, was a normal day but then I got a call from Mrs. Kim and she said that I got VP for the fair board council, so excited since my past experiences with running for councils haven't gone so well. Then Friday was wonderful as well, we went to Ktown and I just love going there and I went to McKays(book heaven on earth) Got the book crazy love (please look it up if you don't know what it is, its really really really good good good) anyways that has been an amazing book, then I finished a book that I had just gotten from Taylre at the sub-regional event. It was a non-cookie cutter book to say the least but it helped me see that not everyone is raised the same way I was and its hard to become a Christian and change over night. Glory to God that I have a great, moral, and Christian family. So the weekend was good I got to celebrate my favorite lady in the world my mom and a few parties as well as a surprise breakfast I made for my family on Sunday. Well I got up this morning and I really didn't want to but it was a call from the 4-H office so I woke up (as well as I could) and found out something so shocking...ready???
Mitch (the ER All Star Advisor)called and wanted to talk to me, Nick (the guy I ran against and lost to for scribe) could no longer be scribe... well I didn't want to get my hopes up and I was worried for Nick, because I thought the worst. So I talked to Mitch and he asked me to be the New Scribe since I was the only other person who had ran. oh my gosh....really?? the Lord works in some really strange yet fantastic ways! So first I had to ask what was wrong with Nick, he just couldn't be at all the events you had to be at to be on council, soo that wasn't like he was dying(praise God!) So I said yes, no way I'm going to turn that down (I prayed and asked my mom 1st, I'm not that reckless) anyways so I'm the new ER Scribe, it feels so weird because I had gotten over losing and I had excepted that I would never be on All Star Council... shocker of all Shockers! even though I didn't win I really feel that God has a plan for both Nick and I, one other events he is going to is a Mission trip and I really pray that he has a wonderful time and the will of God will be done. I also pray that its not weird, do you know what I mean? like "Hey I thought we elected Nick, not Nicole!" or like the council is disappointed, I know that Nick has and would have done a great Job I just hope I can do a good job serving my region and that things will go smoothly although this is like a wrench in the 4-H machine..
But, I'm happy for the most part. I'm just nervous excited!

Take Me or Leave Me...

..Either way I don't want to waste time!

I guess I hit a plateau and frankly it vacuums. Really I mean I can't ask you what your favorite (fill in noun here) is forever! Tell me about your life, your day, what you are doing how that makes you feel..... Share stories! gosh I feel closer to my orthodontist!!!!! (not really but just put forth an effort) long story short, talk to me like I was your friend (becouse I am) and not some girl you like. Then life would be peachy keen and I wouldn't be writing this post.


You know who you are.. the end.

a selfish heart

I have a selfish heart. It wants what it things is best. I wants things that are easy to look at, to deal with, and its not what it has so my heart has a fit and it demands something better and hurting all in its path. My heart wants something that it can not have and will never have, it was more than content a fort night ago but after being selfish again it went on a rampage. The true question is.... is the inner battle a refection of my selfishness or something that is really wrong.
My prayer is that I can see what this conflict truly means and that I can break this hold and do what I must to cause the least amount of pain but the largest sum of joy and happiness.

Oh how long has it bean?

Oh do forgive me... Life has been a whirl-wind of wonderful craziness and I have to say I love it!!! Let me give you a recap since my last post.



Past

- Spring All Star Conference... I didn't get Scribe but I'm totally ok with that as my friend Christina said "God has greater plans for you!"

-TN 4-H State Congress!!!! AHHH!! I had such a wonderful time my leadership placings where 3rd in Portfolio 5th in Interview and 4th over all in state!!!! Although I didn't win it was a wonderful experience and I hope I can go next year then I'll have went to Congress 4 years in a row!!!!!!!

-I'm 17, I know you totally missed my birthday... my super 17th.
-On my birthday I spent the morning with my family and then went to Knoxville and went to Chick-fil-A and "Got some Chicken" hahaha no I got a Peach Milkshake (: yum. Then I went shopping and then danced the night away with my 4-H friends at a decades dance
---Stellar Birthday.

-I applied for many summer leadership activities and I have gotten some good news which I'll share in a bit.



as of now

- School!!!! I have been so busy and I'm really really behind.. Hopefully I can catch up before future plans.
-Honor Club war... yes I hate to say it but we are having a mini-civil war... I'll let you know how that turns out and I'm totally prepared to move to Anderson or Union County 4-H.
- I ran for a TVF youth board council spot... I'll find out in May so I'm kinda stoked about that.
-I got a car... its an old granny boat car but its mine!!! So I'll be getting my drivers licence very soon!!! (:

for the future

-Well, Well, Well I should be done with my Jr. Year mid-May, that is if I can catch up
-Going to the beach!!! ohhh yeahhh.. Although I'm missing family camp I think I might go for a day but the beach is the same week for like 4 out of the 5 days so yeah. I'll be looking at the beach May 25th (:
-Fashion Camp Teen Leader... Oh yeah. Although I thought my best freshie friends where going to be there but nay they will not. 1st week of June
-Leadership training Monday and Tuesday in Greenville 2nd week
-FCS Camp.. teaching a class not sure what class yet... or when that is
-Jr. High Camp Teen Leader 3rd week of June
-Jr. Camp Leader 4th week of June
-1st week of July Family reunion
-2nd week of July free... but I will be spending it getting ready for Round Up and my Campaign.
-3rd week of July ROUND UP!! (this will be a huge week for me this summer)
-4th week looking at the 2011 Washington trip for my Sr. Trip (:
- Signing up for Pelissippi Dual Enrollment Classes.
-Aug. Claiborne County 4-H is starting again and it will mark my Senior Year of 4-H..
the rest for another post?

Welllpp I'll talk about some other things in a latter post.. g'day

Psalms 116
elocin

Beautiful Knowledge

I heard a speaker last night say the most amazing metaphor I have heard in a long time.

"Has anyone ever built a home?? ... Well what you do is, you get the blue prints and take them along with a supplies list to 84 lumber or Lowe's some store like that and they take both and a few days later they come to your building site and drop off every nail, screw, and two by four in a pile and say "There is your house!" ... That's exactly what God dose when you become a Christian. You have all the supplies to build the person God wants you to be through his word, prayer, and a daily walk for God you over time build this person."

I leaned over to my mom and said... "Boy that was good." Now although that kinda tapered off from my main thought but it has the key that knowledge is the "Gold" to be the Christian God wants you to be. Proverbs 20:15 states "There is gold, and a multitude of rubies: but the lips of knowledge are a precious jewel." The Bible holds all the knowledge we need as Christians, not only that but it holds the "precious jewel" for a relationship with God that is ever growing!

I have been reading a great book that I got at McKay's (the 4th love of my life) called Growing in to Womanhood: God's way this book is early 2000's but oh so relevant. (I believe that things in bible days are still as relevant today as they where back then) but it is so amazing, this book has pounded it into my head "READ YOUR BIBLE DAILY!!!" then this past Wednesday bible study "READ YOUR BIBLE DAILY" and I totally agree although I will admit that before I was convicted this week, I had only read it when "I" had time.

.....when I had time.... what was I thinking??? Oh how unworthy I am yet I still didn't even try to be the person God wants me to be! There are things we do to be drawn closer to God and reading his full of knowledge, ever fruitful, eye opening, beautifully written, always relevant word is one of them that is so rewarding and blissful!!!

In said book one of the authors said to schedule time for God, at first I was like...what??? But then as she went on I understood her. We schedule all important things in our life; school, work, cleaning, parties, birthdays, dinners, doctor visits... why not make God a key element in our lives??!?! And along time ago I read a book where a girl who made is a weekly thing to go on a date with God. She would go eat, alone and read her bible then go for a hike or a walk and just talk to God then to top it all off she would find a spot that God's creation was so beautiful and just praise him!! I'm really going to strive to do that this spring and hopefully as long as I have the blessing of being single!
Knowledge is key in every aspect of our lives, and God being our whole life has given us the supplies to gain knowledge daily. I challenge you to take advantage of God's wonderful gift!

In God's Love,
N

Whatcha Think??

Elllo (:

Well even though the initial "AHHHH!" moment is over. I'm still very excited to share some amazing news that I received on Wednesday February 17, 2010 (:
I'm going to CONGRESS!!!! yeah buddy.
Well I went my freshmen year as a delagate (you can only pay to go once)
Then in 10th grade I was a level 1 leadership finalist which was amazing (:(:(:
Now this year I'm a Level II Leadership Finalist top 6 in the whole state... I'm uber excited!!!!
Well Not only am I just excited for this honor, its amazing becouse Congress is an amazing trip and a ton of my best pals are going to be there.... but some won't (tear) Yes that is the pain of being Level II at Congress, there aren't many people there who are in your class.... But I have younger pals and some who are my age who shall be there! (: So yay! Well I'd also like to add that I plan to kick some major butt. yeah I said it I want to win! But I bigger fish to fry before I can even think about that.... Like SPRING ALL STARS!!! eeepppp. Well in an older post I talked all about the election, let me refresh you. I'm running for Scribe (: Oh yeah and its 3 weeks away!!!! AHHHH! I know right... scary. needless to say I'm excited and happy. But really nervous. I'm running against one guy as of now and I could barf just at the tough of the speech I have to give..... gah. But I have a lot of support from some amazing friends and I'm just so blessed for the opportunity to even be running && being in All Stars. All of my closest pals shall be there and I'm ready to face the sad or good music that might play as the current scribe the Amazing Samantha gives the sash.... ok I just threw up a little... Well please pray for me. I'm going to need it and just pray that God's will be done and that I can have the courage to all the needed things and that I will always have my eyes on him (:

love,
N

Today is the Lord's Day

EVERYDAY!
is a day that the Lord has made and we should rejoice and be glad in it! (Psalms 118:24)

I'd like to share something that happened to me last night during nightly prayer. But before I go into that I have to build it it...
Yesterday my friend posted a link to a video on Crazylove.com so I watched it and it was so amazing to see, also it was very humbling. Check it out for yourself.
http://crazylovebook.com/videos_awe.html
Ohkays, so after you have seen this what do you think? I was truly amazed.
Anyways I was giving glory to God for that video during prayer, and I started to doubt. The Devil was attacking me. I just cried out for strength and forgiveness for my dark feeling of doubt. I then basically told the devil he was no match for my Lord and to leave me alone! Suddenly this horrid feeling deep down went away and I felt peace, a greater peace than I have ever felt. It was amazing then I spent time just praising God, and I felt so great!!! Then I went to bed.

The point to this was that an hour or two before I prayed I had a break down, crying and just bursting out all the stress that was on me, and just screaming about how much that day had stunk and that all my days where going to be like that. I really had a cruddy way of looking at everything and then after I prayed and refocused my sight upon God everything felt 1,000 times better! I wasn't giving God his day! and I surely wasn't rejoicing or being glad in that day!

But thanks to God and his willingness to forgive and to take me back to the right path. I found a song that had Psalms 118:24 in the course which was playing right before I went to bed then when I got up and still had that lovely feeling on my heart and knew that today was HIS day, and I am blessed to have it and so unworthy!!!
So I am so ready to go out today and be a light, although the day is half over.... XD

I hope you have a blessed day!

Love,
-N