I have a selfish heart. It wants what it things is best. I wants things that are easy to look at, to deal with, and its not what it has so my heart has a fit and it demands something better and hurting all in its path. My heart wants something that it can not have and will never have, it was more than content a fort night ago but after being selfish again it went on a rampage. The true question is.... is the inner battle a refection of my selfishness or something that is really wrong.
My prayer is that I can see what this conflict truly means and that I can break this hold and do what I must to cause the least amount of pain but the largest sum of joy and happiness.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Tuesday, April 20, 2010
Oh how long has it bean?
Oh do forgive me... Life has been a whirl-wind of wonderful craziness and I have to say I love it!!! Let me give you a recap since my last post.
Past
- Spring All Star Conference... I didn't get Scribe but I'm totally ok with that as my friend Christina said "God has greater plans for you!"
-TN 4-H State Congress!!!! AHHH!! I had such a wonderful time my leadership placings where 3rd in Portfolio 5th in Interview and 4th over all in state!!!! Although I didn't win it was a wonderful experience and I hope I can go next year then I'll have went to Congress 4 years in a row!!!!!!!
-I'm 17, I know you totally missed my birthday... my super 17th.
-On my birthday I spent the morning with my family and then went to Knoxville and went to Chick-fil-A and "Got some Chicken" hahaha no I got a Peach Milkshake (: yum. Then I went shopping and then danced the night away with my 4-H friends at a decades dance
---Stellar Birthday.
-I applied for many summer leadership activities and I have gotten some good news which I'll share in a bit.
as of now
- School!!!! I have been so busy and I'm really really behind.. Hopefully I can catch up before future plans.
-Honor Club war... yes I hate to say it but we are having a mini-civil war... I'll let you know how that turns out and I'm totally prepared to move to Anderson or Union County 4-H.
- I ran for a TVF youth board council spot... I'll find out in May so I'm kinda stoked about that.
-I got a car... its an old granny boat car but its mine!!! So I'll be getting my drivers licence very soon!!! (:
for the future
-Well, Well, Well I should be done with my Jr. Year mid-May, that is if I can catch up
-Going to the beach!!! ohhh yeahhh.. Although I'm missing family camp I think I might go for a day but the beach is the same week for like 4 out of the 5 days so yeah. I'll be looking at the beach May 25th (:
-Fashion Camp Teen Leader... Oh yeah. Although I thought my best freshie friends where going to be there but nay they will not. 1st week of June
-Leadership training Monday and Tuesday in Greenville 2nd week
-FCS Camp.. teaching a class not sure what class yet... or when that is
-Jr. High Camp Teen Leader 3rd week of June
-Jr. Camp Leader 4th week of June
-1st week of July Family reunion
-2nd week of July free... but I will be spending it getting ready for Round Up and my Campaign.
-3rd week of July ROUND UP!! (this will be a huge week for me this summer)
-4th week looking at the 2011 Washington trip for my Sr. Trip (:
- Signing up for Pelissippi Dual Enrollment Classes.
-Aug. Claiborne County 4-H is starting again and it will mark my Senior Year of 4-H..
the rest for another post?
Welllpp I'll talk about some other things in a latter post.. g'day
Psalms 116
elocin
Past
- Spring All Star Conference... I didn't get Scribe but I'm totally ok with that as my friend Christina said "God has greater plans for you!"
-TN 4-H State Congress!!!! AHHH!! I had such a wonderful time my leadership placings where 3rd in Portfolio 5th in Interview and 4th over all in state!!!! Although I didn't win it was a wonderful experience and I hope I can go next year then I'll have went to Congress 4 years in a row!!!!!!!
-I'm 17, I know you totally missed my birthday... my super 17th.
-On my birthday I spent the morning with my family and then went to Knoxville and went to Chick-fil-A and "Got some Chicken" hahaha no I got a Peach Milkshake (: yum. Then I went shopping and then danced the night away with my 4-H friends at a decades dance
---Stellar Birthday.
-I applied for many summer leadership activities and I have gotten some good news which I'll share in a bit.
as of now
- School!!!! I have been so busy and I'm really really behind.. Hopefully I can catch up before future plans.
-Honor Club war... yes I hate to say it but we are having a mini-civil war... I'll let you know how that turns out and I'm totally prepared to move to Anderson or Union County 4-H.
- I ran for a TVF youth board council spot... I'll find out in May so I'm kinda stoked about that.
-I got a car... its an old granny boat car but its mine!!! So I'll be getting my drivers licence very soon!!! (:
for the future
-Well, Well, Well I should be done with my Jr. Year mid-May, that is if I can catch up
-Going to the beach!!! ohhh yeahhh.. Although I'm missing family camp I think I might go for a day but the beach is the same week for like 4 out of the 5 days so yeah. I'll be looking at the beach May 25th (:
-Fashion Camp Teen Leader... Oh yeah. Although I thought my best freshie friends where going to be there but nay they will not. 1st week of June
-Leadership training Monday and Tuesday in Greenville 2nd week
-FCS Camp.. teaching a class not sure what class yet... or when that is
-Jr. High Camp Teen Leader 3rd week of June
-Jr. Camp Leader 4th week of June
-1st week of July Family reunion
-2nd week of July free... but I will be spending it getting ready for Round Up and my Campaign.
-3rd week of July ROUND UP!! (this will be a huge week for me this summer)
-4th week looking at the 2011 Washington trip for my Sr. Trip (:
- Signing up for Pelissippi Dual Enrollment Classes.
-Aug. Claiborne County 4-H is starting again and it will mark my Senior Year of 4-H..
the rest for another post?
Welllpp I'll talk about some other things in a latter post.. g'day
Psalms 116
elocin
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