Saturday, February 20, 2010

Whatcha Think??

Elllo (:

Well even though the initial "AHHHH!" moment is over. I'm still very excited to share some amazing news that I received on Wednesday February 17, 2010 (:
I'm going to CONGRESS!!!! yeah buddy.
Well I went my freshmen year as a delagate (you can only pay to go once)
Then in 10th grade I was a level 1 leadership finalist which was amazing (:(:(:
Now this year I'm a Level II Leadership Finalist top 6 in the whole state... I'm uber excited!!!!
Well Not only am I just excited for this honor, its amazing becouse Congress is an amazing trip and a ton of my best pals are going to be there.... but some won't (tear) Yes that is the pain of being Level II at Congress, there aren't many people there who are in your class.... But I have younger pals and some who are my age who shall be there! (: So yay! Well I'd also like to add that I plan to kick some major butt. yeah I said it I want to win! But I bigger fish to fry before I can even think about that.... Like SPRING ALL STARS!!! eeepppp. Well in an older post I talked all about the election, let me refresh you. I'm running for Scribe (: Oh yeah and its 3 weeks away!!!! AHHHH! I know right... scary. needless to say I'm excited and happy. But really nervous. I'm running against one guy as of now and I could barf just at the tough of the speech I have to give..... gah. But I have a lot of support from some amazing friends and I'm just so blessed for the opportunity to even be running && being in All Stars. All of my closest pals shall be there and I'm ready to face the sad or good music that might play as the current scribe the Amazing Samantha gives the sash.... ok I just threw up a little... Well please pray for me. I'm going to need it and just pray that God's will be done and that I can have the courage to all the needed things and that I will always have my eyes on him (:

love,
N

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Today is the Lord's Day

EVERYDAY!
is a day that the Lord has made and we should rejoice and be glad in it! (Psalms 118:24)

I'd like to share something that happened to me last night during nightly prayer. But before I go into that I have to build it it...
Yesterday my friend posted a link to a video on Crazylove.com so I watched it and it was so amazing to see, also it was very humbling. Check it out for yourself.
http://crazylovebook.com/videos_awe.html
Ohkays, so after you have seen this what do you think? I was truly amazed.
Anyways I was giving glory to God for that video during prayer, and I started to doubt. The Devil was attacking me. I just cried out for strength and forgiveness for my dark feeling of doubt. I then basically told the devil he was no match for my Lord and to leave me alone! Suddenly this horrid feeling deep down went away and I felt peace, a greater peace than I have ever felt. It was amazing then I spent time just praising God, and I felt so great!!! Then I went to bed.

The point to this was that an hour or two before I prayed I had a break down, crying and just bursting out all the stress that was on me, and just screaming about how much that day had stunk and that all my days where going to be like that. I really had a cruddy way of looking at everything and then after I prayed and refocused my sight upon God everything felt 1,000 times better! I wasn't giving God his day! and I surely wasn't rejoicing or being glad in that day!

But thanks to God and his willingness to forgive and to take me back to the right path. I found a song that had Psalms 118:24 in the course which was playing right before I went to bed then when I got up and still had that lovely feeling on my heart and knew that today was HIS day, and I am blessed to have it and so unworthy!!!
So I am so ready to go out today and be a light, although the day is half over.... XD

I hope you have a blessed day!

Love,
-N

Saturday, February 13, 2010

Friday the 12th

buzzzz ello
Oh that was a great day! (:
Well 1st, I over slept. Until 9 but I still had enough time to get ready! We left for Clinton at like 11 something... and we took the cutest road to get there. I was overly happy to see all the old farm houses, churches (actually I found one and I said "I'm getting married there." It was prefect!!! Nestled in trees and white with a steeple with a bell and and pretty windows on the side!!! And it was baptist!! So it had passed the out side check list, although it could be ugly on the inside. So we will see!
But We got to Clinton and I sent Josiah a text "I'm here where are you all at" and he came and got me, (oh I went there for a 4-H event with Anderson Co. 4-H) Then we walked around the court house and I got to see and hug everyone! And they where all really surprised that I was there :) Only Caleb and Josiah knew I think... Then I couldn't stay long because we had stuff to do in Ktown, but I had a great time with all of them, Anderson Co. is like my home away from home now... hahahaha ;) I love you all!
Kay so we went to a part of that area, I go there alot but I can never tell if it is in Knox or Anderson Co. But we went to the Verizon Store which was Packed! So we didn't get to talk to anyone, then mom ate at Firehouse and I had the brownie that came with the meal because I really didn't want to eat there but she really likes it so I was tyring to be nice, plus she was kinda mad at me so I was tyring to undo that. Anyways we left and went to UTK so I could pick up a small box, but it weighed more than I do at Morgan Hall (: And I carried it down to the car. Then we went the strangest way to Target in West Town, and to the bank that took extra time..... and we looked around for ever and bought NOTHING! I was sorta upset with that. Then Mom and I talked about people who drove around with dogs in their car mom was like I bet they talk to them too "Ok guys do you want to go home or stay out in town longer? Oh Lucy we forgot the milk, one last stop!" it was so funny...
Then we drove through Fountain City and Halls at 5 pm what a mistake!!! grr, you couldn't go 5 ft with out stopping! But we finally got on the road going 60 so it was good.
Then I went to walmart in Mboro while I waited on Ashley's movie to be over... and then when they where out I met them at the Mexican place, it was pretty good. Then we went to the VDay Dance, and I danced and danced (many people there looked like....well they weren't leaving room for Jesus!) And Then I helped clean up and I went home.
I went to bed with out washing my face or brushing my teeth so I felt like crud when I got up this morning, and I didn't get up until like 11 swish, good thing its Saturday! Well it was a great day! (:
Now I'm going to have another good day! (: buzz bu-bye
love,
n

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

my hood?

I don't mean to brag but I live in a very beautiful place! It is filled with History, which is love! And lots of hiking trails which is also amazing! I'm not going to say where I live, I can only say East Tennessee but here is an amazing photo from one of my favorite places of all time(:


Isn't that amazing??? This did not happen by chance, God spent time creating something this beautiful! If you would like to know where that is comment and I'll let you know!
-n

...college...

So I'm a Jr.
Whoa do I feel old. Well when I was in 5th grade and I dreamed of what it would be like to be 16 and now that I'm here... about to turn 17 (that makes me feel really old) nothing is like my dreams at all. They are better! although I don't drive, I have never had a boyfriend(praise God), I'm not Class President(even though I'm no longer in the 2011 class of CHS) I have to realize that though those dreams aren't real they are not my dreams now. I have larger goals that make me a better person and are not selfish or peaty. I want to change me and change the lives of others. I want to work hard and be something great! I want to be a great friend and go to a dream college ---- wait, did I just type college? I did. Well I am a Jr. and going to college has always been something in the future and I have a school in mind but lets not think about it to much its a long time from now... well the future is now!!! Even though not a lot of my family members have been to college its never been like Oh my gosh you are going to College, wow! No big deal..... wrong!!! HUGE DEAL!! LARGE DEAL!!! SIZE of the WORLD DEAL!!!!
In my last blog I said that I wanted to go to UTK, always have always will. I love the campus, how close it is to home and how 4-H is there (: I have always thought I would go to school there!! But in the past years that seems like something that is not going to happen. Not because of anything I have control over, unless I want to change what I want to do! They use to have Fashion Merchandising or Clothing and Textiles... well they threw that out the window!! Grrreeeatt! So they have an Interior Design School , woot woot! I was really excited until I job shadowed a firm, not so much for me. It is ok its just really......... a backup. So I'm still going to apply but here is the plan...
1. Apply there
2. Go to school for a year( just so I can say I went) I guess in Int' Design or Child Family Studies...which some of the classes will transfer to this next step.
3. transfer to UTMartin or MTSU my 2nd year!! (they have Fashion Merchandising!!)
4. take summer classes at a Christian College for Missionary work
4. Live happily ever after!!

or

Go to a Christian University!!
1. get a degree in Missionology! with a Minor in Youth Counseling(if I can do that)
2. Live a full time life of service for the Lord!
3. Live happily ever after with a great passport (:

I going to have to pray about this A LOT and see where God wants me!

If you are struggling with this too leave me a comment I'd love to talk about it! or if you have in the past!

Psalm 116
-n ♥

Tuesday, February 9, 2010

Weakness...

Oh Lord, I can't find words to describe how amazing you truly are. And its way more than I can ever imagine. I was watching CBN with my Grandmother, and one of the broadcasters said "I find that the more I grow as a Christian the weaker I become." Which for me is very true but not in a bad way, We are weak to the things that we should be and our Savior gives us unimaginable strength. I'm so very blessed to know these things at my age. God is preparing me for an amazing journey, and a lot of times I want the action "right now" when I know in my heart that its not in God's Timing. Right now in my life is the time for prep, getting ready to face the world and truly work for God. I'm struggling right now with my decision for Colleges. At a very young age(when I was in 4th grade) God put it on my heart that I would be a missionary. And it has been there since but I put it aside for a while but when I was almost 15 I really had a thirst for God's word, Praise God for that too! I can't imagine where I would be now if God hadn't put that on my heart. But after learning what I should be doing in the years before I left home I put it in to my actions, slowly changing over time. But now I'm in this inner battle praying for God's will to be shown to me. For things such as which College? What should I Major in? Should I give up on my life long dream of Going to UTK (this is Vol Country...OK!) and go to West Coast Bible College (in Cali!!!!).. This has all been on my mind and I just pray that I can do whats right and what will bring the most Honor and Glory to God! But Back to my main point in the bible there are so may verses that say that God is our Strength! like Isaiah 12:2 that says "...I will Trust and not be Afraid: for the Lord JEHOVAH is my Strength and my song...." How amazing!!! I believe that everyone has a desire for a relationship with the Lord, and you can not have a full life with out him. Becouse he is everything!!
Any words to add feel free! (:

love,
-n♥

Thursday, February 4, 2010

today was a great day

Since the first few days this week where far from fantastic I am so blessed that I had a great day like today!
I woke up at 7:00 am
ate oatmeal eggs and toast along with water!
had bible study & prayer time
worked out for 30 mins
took a shower
did school work
fixed my once long hair (we will get to that in a moment)
went to the m'boro mall looked at spring fashions at Belks... really didn't have anything and I ate like 2/3 of a bag of white fudge covered pretzels....oh my gosh they where sooooooo good!
Went to Mc-y D's and had a snack wrap and sweet tea
Got my hair cut at trimmers!!!
met my mammaw in Kroger parking lot in m'boro, went to the taco bell in T-well (better taco bell) didn't eat anything... too full from mcyd's
dropped my brother off with my mammaw while I tagged along with my mom to Biggest Loser!
was told that I was pretty a hundred times by ladies my mom knew, they where really sweet!
Did chair aerobics, it was really fun!!!
listened as they played dirty music in the boot camp class in a church.... I almost died....
Saw an old pal from long ago!!!! (:
Had a lovely devotional
then a horrid power point by the lady who played the dirty music, as she promoted her self...
Talked about FASHION CAMP!!!
left, got Ben
went to Captain D's.... Yes I only ate breakfast at home today.... really weird
had yummy pasta bowl sang to my mom!!!
went to walmart to buy nothing, although we thought we would....
came home emailed, facebook, twitter, blogged.. fun fun
...About tooo...
bible study and prayer!!!
Hit they hay, excited for KNOXVILLE tomorrow! (I can not wait until we move there although its a little over a year away!)

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

My Love of RK

Relient K... mmmmm (:

They are amazing, and by far one of my favorite bands (: Each CD by them amazes me, and I love their quirky songs that are fun then they have these deep songs that when I feel sad help me a lot, as of now Forget and Not Slow Down (New CD) is amazinggggg.. So If you don't like Relient K then you are missing out.
I wish a guy would sing this song to me (: it would make me swoon even if I didn't really like him.. Note to all guys who may ever like me, say or sing me this song and I will be yours (hahahaha)
"Baby I spent my life wondering Wondering when I'd find you I searched for all these years and now you're right here I need you to know that Everything makes sense when you're with me" -Relient K's Savannah on Forget and Not Slow Down

Or We could be in the 80's and you could wear a pink tux to the prom with me.. mmkay sounds great! But don't be a pirate who dose nothing, or don't let it get so bad that you need a wake up call, just be sweet and let every moment be the best thing. And I'm sure we will make a good team so we will need jerseys kay?

forever basking in the glory which is RK
-N

Monday, February 1, 2010

Just Another Manic Monday

Buzzz Hello.

Today is the 1st day of February.. And It is pretty packed full of things to do at home..
...There was a Huge Snow that hit Tennessee this week end and the roads where I live still are covered.. "Yaaay.." So this means no 4-H home school club.. No Turning in my leadership portfolio... and.. nooo Knoxville to go shopping and pop in on some pals :( total sad face

Never the less this gives me ample time to work on things at home like..
- Clean my messy room, that I'm always to busy to clean.
- Get ahead on some school work... Scratch that I'm behind on Alg. 2 I guess I'll play catch up today.
- Use the amazing steam mop, I have a love relationship with that thing. Its great on out hardwood down stairs and floors in the bathrooms (:
- Spend some quality Jesus Time (: Bible study, you know what I'll have a date tonight... (side bar--- I read a book not to long ago that when you feel lonely... God is calling you to him so since I have been watching movies all weekend chowing down on sherbet I think I'll have a God Date (: Ohhhh Yeahhh.
- Oh, watch the office, I mean there is always time to watch some quality witty t.v. right??

Running for Scribe

Hey Y'all (:

Well To my fellow 4-H All Stars I just thought I'd give you all an update on my campaign. Even though I am very nervous I have confidence that the Eastern Region will pick the best 2010-2011 council, even if that means that I am not a member. But I'm still running and I'm very excited to see everyone at Spring Conference!!! Another thing, If anyone knows where I can find a button maker??? I have googled it 1,000 times, still no such luck. Dose anyone know If I could get one in the greater Knoxville Area??? Because I know there is no place to by one in dinky Claiborne County XD Anyyywayys! But here are my goals for this election; to have the best campaign EVER!!! and Give a greattt Speech!!!! (which I am most nervous about) When I ran for Jr. rep at Roundup last summer, I got a nose bleed that would NOT stop, until Mrs. Webber came to my rescue and made me lay down on a couch in the bathroom with a wet paper napkin on my for head... then I had to go 1st!!! Even though I didn't win I was still very happy that I gave my speech with out passing out!!!

Never the less I hope that this election goes smoothly and that everyone has a great conference!!! Oh and another thing if anyone has any tips or what ever to help me with my speech I will love you forever, not like I don't all ready but even more!!!!

-N