Weakness...

Oh Lord, I can't find words to describe how amazing you truly are. And its way more than I can ever imagine. I was watching CBN with my Grandmother, and one of the broadcasters said "I find that the more I grow as a Christian the weaker I become." Which for me is very true but not in a bad way, We are weak to the things that we should be and our Savior gives us unimaginable strength. I'm so very blessed to know these things at my age. God is preparing me for an amazing journey, and a lot of times I want the action "right now" when I know in my heart that its not in God's Timing. Right now in my life is the time for prep, getting ready to face the world and truly work for God. I'm struggling right now with my decision for Colleges. At a very young age(when I was in 4th grade) God put it on my heart that I would be a missionary. And it has been there since but I put it aside for a while but when I was almost 15 I really had a thirst for God's word, Praise God for that too! I can't imagine where I would be now if God hadn't put that on my heart. But after learning what I should be doing in the years before I left home I put it in to my actions, slowly changing over time. But now I'm in this inner battle praying for God's will to be shown to me. For things such as which College? What should I Major in? Should I give up on my life long dream of Going to UTK (this is Vol Country...OK!) and go to West Coast Bible College (in Cali!!!!).. This has all been on my mind and I just pray that I can do whats right and what will bring the most Honor and Glory to God! But Back to my main point in the bible there are so may verses that say that God is our Strength! like Isaiah 12:2 that says "...I will Trust and not be Afraid: for the Lord JEHOVAH is my Strength and my song...." How amazing!!! I believe that everyone has a desire for a relationship with the Lord, and you can not have a full life with out him. Becouse he is everything!!
Any words to add feel free! (:

love,
-n♥