...college...

So I'm a Jr.
Whoa do I feel old. Well when I was in 5th grade and I dreamed of what it would be like to be 16 and now that I'm here... about to turn 17 (that makes me feel really old) nothing is like my dreams at all. They are better! although I don't drive, I have never had a boyfriend(praise God), I'm not Class President(even though I'm no longer in the 2011 class of CHS) I have to realize that though those dreams aren't real they are not my dreams now. I have larger goals that make me a better person and are not selfish or peaty. I want to change me and change the lives of others. I want to work hard and be something great! I want to be a great friend and go to a dream college ---- wait, did I just type college? I did. Well I am a Jr. and going to college has always been something in the future and I have a school in mind but lets not think about it to much its a long time from now... well the future is now!!! Even though not a lot of my family members have been to college its never been like Oh my gosh you are going to College, wow! No big deal..... wrong!!! HUGE DEAL!! LARGE DEAL!!! SIZE of the WORLD DEAL!!!!
In my last blog I said that I wanted to go to UTK, always have always will. I love the campus, how close it is to home and how 4-H is there (: I have always thought I would go to school there!! But in the past years that seems like something that is not going to happen. Not because of anything I have control over, unless I want to change what I want to do! They use to have Fashion Merchandising or Clothing and Textiles... well they threw that out the window!! Grrreeeatt! So they have an Interior Design School , woot woot! I was really excited until I job shadowed a firm, not so much for me. It is ok its just really......... a backup. So I'm still going to apply but here is the plan...
1. Apply there
2. Go to school for a year( just so I can say I went) I guess in Int' Design or Child Family Studies...which some of the classes will transfer to this next step.
3. transfer to UTMartin or MTSU my 2nd year!! (they have Fashion Merchandising!!)
4. take summer classes at a Christian College for Missionary work
4. Live happily ever after!!

or

Go to a Christian University!!
1. get a degree in Missionology! with a Minor in Youth Counseling(if I can do that)
2. Live a full time life of service for the Lord!
3. Live happily ever after with a great passport (:

I going to have to pray about this A LOT and see where God wants me!

If you are struggling with this too leave me a comment I'd love to talk about it! or if you have in the past!

Psalm 116
-n ♥